I
remember how lost I was. I
thought true love was just a fantasy. Something we want so much but never
really existed except in movies and Disney's.
Nevertheless,
I never thought that I'd meet Him earlier than expected. It was so sudden. It
was like He knew I needed Him long before I'd figure how much I will be needing
him in the future.
He
knew me so well, inside and out. He knew my thoughts, my desires and my every
move. I
used to wonder why He came along? Why He chose to love me? I tried to ignore it but He
was very persistent. He never gave up on me. Instead, He was very caring. He
promised to treasure me forever. I was hesitant... "forever?" There
is no such thing, I insisted.
My
so-called friends even pushed Him away. They said He was a kill joy and that He
will never make me happy.
He
always warns me when I was about to do something foolish. I simply hated Him
for that. Yet He never gave up on me. He was there to support me through thick
and thin. I am not sure why but I could not keep Him away because He always
seem to come back all the time.
Unexpectedly,
one faithful day a miracle happened. I suddenly wanted Him more than anything.
I felt joy and peace for the first time. There were no warning or caution. In a
blink of an eye bad habits began to diminish.
For
the very first time, I was hoping, depending and constantly talking to Him. I didn't want it to end. It
was almost like a drug but in a good way. I had so many questions and He
already had the answers.
The
moment I knew Him, I realized how stupid I was to ignore Him.
But
giving up what I want wasn't easy. My desires for something else claimed me. He
sometimes can be very pushy and eerie. I was drowning but in denial of my own
weaknesses. He was the best and I am such a mess. I thought this time He will
surely leave. So many moments I have disappointed Him. So many times I did my
best to forget Him.
But
NO! He
said He loves me no matter how broken I was. He said He will always love
unconditionally. In my mind I knew I don't deserve Him.
Then,
I asked myself once more...
What love is this?
I
started to wonder. He loved me despite my flaws and imperfections, He loved me
despite my doubts and hesitations and He simply loves me for me. Who else will
ever love me like this? I asked.
He
gently replied, "Me."
From
that moment on, I gave up everything. I accepted His love and promises. He then
became my inspiration, my Savior and my Hero. The only person I can trust, the
only one who can give me the moon and the stars, the only person who died for me and
the only trustworthy friend that I will ever have--Jesus
Christ.
Here's
my heart Lord, I am forever yours.
