I am
writing this blog Monday, 31st of December 2018 and its 12:50pm in
the afternoon. Few hours from now, everybody in the world will welcome the
start of the New Year 2019.
I
want to be grateful as much as possible for the good and bad moments of my
life. I wonder if everything will be different next year or it will be the same
year for me in 2018. I also wonder if I will ever be regretful of the things I
did and the things I did not do. I had become lazy, arrogant, deceitful, liar,
hateful and lost. Something that I thought I would never experience again when I
vowed to not turn back to my old ways since I was baptized in the name of Jesus
Christ. Unfortunately, I chose to leave His presence for a temporary pleasures
in life yet again. Believe me, it was not worth it.
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| During Year-end CAAP Party 2018 |
This
year (2018), was full of compromised. I lost my first love who is no other than
“Jesus Christ” to a man whom I thought could replace Him. Three hundred
sixty-four (364) days without Jesus Christ is both a torture and nightmare. I
felt so alone, lost and miserable. There was no peace in my heart, everything
was just dark and gloomy. It was only after today that I realized how stupid I
have become. I lost something important in my life but this coming 2019, I am
determined to take back my rightful place as God’s child. Thus, in order to be
more focus on Him, I decided to end the very reason I had gone astray in the
first place.
“Relationships with someone your opposite
sex can be tricky and if you’re not careful, you’ll drown. And the next you
know, you are no longer that same person you were once before.” –T. Shiya
I
prayed for a godly relationship but what came to me was like a devil’s plot and
I jumped right into his plan leaving me in regrets and confusion. This is like
a slap on my face. I got too excited and exactly what I previously wrote on my
blog, I didn’t listen to what God has to say to me first before I said “YES”. I
am a complete failure from the very beginning. And who is to blame? It is no
other than—“ME”.
My
realization this December 31st 2018 is I must go back to Jesus
Christ. The only Man who understands me; the only Man who loves me despite my
failures; the only Man who can heal my brokenness; lift me in times of grief
and the only man who can satisfy my soul. I am raising my standard towards God
and if any man would try to pursue me yet again, he must be a man of God. This
time, I will patiently wait for that man. The right man that loves Jesus Christ
above all things so he can love me the same way.
FIVE (5) Things a Man needs before a woman
Genesis
2:24
1. Presence of God. A man must meet the woman in the presence of God.
2. Work. A man needs a job before he gets a woman. (Genesis 2:15)
3. Cultivate. To bring out the best in everything about you. To make
everything fruitful. The male was
created by God to create what he wants. God never gives a finished woman. It’s
the man’s job to take the raw material he married and cultivate the woman in
his head.
4. Guard the garden. Man must protect everything under his care.
5. The word of God. His job is to teach his wife the word of God.
Thus,
if I meet a man who is not in the presence of God, doesn’t have work, can’t
cultivate me, can’t protect me and doesn’t know God’s word—then it’s good for
that man to be alone.
I
believe that God has a purpose and He has a plan for me. My failed relationship with a man does not
mean it is the end. I believe it’s just the start of a new life, new mornings,
new friends and new beginnings with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
I am ready to listen now, Lord. Please
heal this brokenness and save me.
Thereby,
this is Jonjay Damz aka “Shiya Tamasao” happily signing of in 2018—contented,
thankful and openly embracing God’s wonderful gift of “Single blessedness” once
again. See you few hours from now 2019 (end—2:27pm).
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December 31, 2018
