Leap of Faith

"When all things fail and you just got to hold on to Jesus."

Matters of the Heart

I guess it is better this way because the harder I try to erase it in my mind the more it lingers. I believe it is for the better. I can't dwell in the past. There are so much ahead of me, God has greater plans for me and I need to focus myself on Him and not on the occurring problems. It is inevitable though... to feel helpless especially when I am so caught up by the memories that haunts me every time I close my eyes.

I still wonder shy? Why am I feeling this way, why am I so emotional? I never learn despite my downfall. I wish I could just delete and rewrite the story but it is too late now. I will have to deal with the consequences. I will have to put my trust on God. 

The only father who is faithful and just. Who will love me no matter what and will always welcome me with open arms. My bad experience rendered me speechless and powerless against the enemy. But I am determined, I am determined to use the mishap to God's advantage. 

This is just the beginning. God is still writing my story.

Shiya Tamasao_September 2,2015

I am nothing without Jesus Christ. 

Up-Side-Down

He said, "Stop", but I did not stop.
He said, "Be calm", but I was over excited.
He said, "Be patient" but I was in such haste.
He said, "Wait" but I took over and quickly decided. 

Whatever happened to that obedient child, a once loving person who speaks in such sweetness? Never imagined I was falling too deep, stumbling and failing on a melancholic drift. If you did not catch me, I’d be paralyzing, because the cut was too deep and he was full of lies. 

The path I had taken did me nothing good at all; I was becoming a victim of the revolting soul ties.

Take me away and make me new. Please fill my memories with blissful thoughts. Help me forget the nightmare that I once sought. Take the pain away and comfort me dear Lord.
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A Window of Hope

My God, where art thou?
In my struggles and painful mourning,
How long will you allow me to suffer?
How long will I feel its torture?

I find it hard to obey and be faithful,
Will you guide me this time and help me recover?
I am aware of my selfishness and pride,
Everything’s in vain and I am running out of time. 

Take me up and lift me high, 

You are more than enough for me. 

Heal the hurt and find what’s lost, 

You are everything I need. 

I know that this world is full of evil and cruel men. I am not safe, nothing is certain. Temptation, pride and deceitfulness are lurking everywhere. I will suffer, I will be in pain and I will encounter turmoil, rejection and tribulation. Many will hate me for being close to You. Most of them will persecute me for choosing You over the world. They will try to deceive me by telling me “You don’t exist”. I will fall, I will fail and I will be lost.

But I want to hold on to your promise because I believe that You are faithful. You are a powerful and a loving God. I am not perfect but I am forgiven. I know you will rescue me in the dark. I am aware of my setbacks and my feebleness Oh Lord.

I am weak but you are my strength. 

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